Moodboard #081122

Yesterday, I didn't manage to blog. A lot of things happened within a day.

I watched Naruto Shippuuden Episode 85 in the early morning @ 02:00am. I slept about at 02:30 and woke up about at 09:30. I was online since morning and chatted with Timothy for like 03 hours until I had my lunch. He talked more about his current boyfriend and I was just listening whatever he was telling me. He complained about his boyfriend and seemed like their relationship was breaking up, I guessed.

First, we planned to jog in Sunday evening since I was willing to go church on that time. About 13:40, he messaged me that he wanted to talk to me and come to my place. I was shocked and didn't plan to meet him so early. I tried to reject his request but ended, we planned to meet for jogging and dinner on that evening. Due to heavy rain, we cancelled to jog and meet for dinner near my house.

After dinner, we headed to my place. He brought ghost movies and we chose one of those and the movie title is "Long Time Dead". He tried to hold my hand and then hugged me. I felt scared and didn't know what to do. Just followed his lead. He started to stay very closed to me. I didn't know how we started kissing. I tried to give excuse, get out from my room and calm down myself. I have never kissed like that before. The sensation was really great. I wanted more of it.

We continued watching the movie and the second time approach was me. Man, I couldn't hold the desire to kiss him anymore. (I missed him a lot when I'm writing this post). We had very long kisses and i couldn't count it anymore. We slept about 23:00 but woke up too often in the middle of the night. I looked at him carefully and kissed gently on his face whenever I woke up. He talked a lot about his boyfriend, how much he loves him and etc. I listened whatever he said. I know that we are just friend and I didn't want to spoil it at all. I think I started to like him but he has a boyfriend. I just want him to be happy and want to see his smile often :) Hunger of his presence stirs up in my heart since he left.

~ A phrase from my heart ~
Beating with the rhythm of love

~ Mood ~
Ready to be in love

~ Music for my soul ~
This music represents how I feel right now


~ Tracing my hours ~
07 hours of sleep
04 hours of chatting
01 hour of cleaning my room
1/2 hour of cleaning bathroom
1/2 hour of exercise
1/2 hour of jogging