Moodboard #081122

Yesterday, I didn't manage to blog. A lot of things happened within a day.

I watched Naruto Shippuuden Episode 85 in the early morning @ 02:00am. I slept about at 02:30 and woke up about at 09:30. I was online since morning and chatted with Timothy for like 03 hours until I had my lunch. He talked more about his current boyfriend and I was just listening whatever he was telling me. He complained about his boyfriend and seemed like their relationship was breaking up, I guessed.

First, we planned to jog in Sunday evening since I was willing to go church on that time. About 13:40, he messaged me that he wanted to talk to me and come to my place. I was shocked and didn't plan to meet him so early. I tried to reject his request but ended, we planned to meet for jogging and dinner on that evening. Due to heavy rain, we cancelled to jog and meet for dinner near my house.

After dinner, we headed to my place. He brought ghost movies and we chose one of those and the movie title is "Long Time Dead". He tried to hold my hand and then hugged me. I felt scared and didn't know what to do. Just followed his lead. He started to stay very closed to me. I didn't know how we started kissing. I tried to give excuse, get out from my room and calm down myself. I have never kissed like that before. The sensation was really great. I wanted more of it.

We continued watching the movie and the second time approach was me. Man, I couldn't hold the desire to kiss him anymore. (I missed him a lot when I'm writing this post). We had very long kisses and i couldn't count it anymore. We slept about 23:00 but woke up too often in the middle of the night. I looked at him carefully and kissed gently on his face whenever I woke up. He talked a lot about his boyfriend, how much he loves him and etc. I listened whatever he said. I know that we are just friend and I didn't want to spoil it at all. I think I started to like him but he has a boyfriend. I just want him to be happy and want to see his smile often :) Hunger of his presence stirs up in my heart since he left.

~ A phrase from my heart ~
Beating with the rhythm of love

~ Mood ~
Ready to be in love

~ Music for my soul ~
This music represents how I feel right now


~ Tracing my hours ~
07 hours of sleep
04 hours of chatting
01 hour of cleaning my room
1/2 hour of cleaning bathroom
1/2 hour of exercise
1/2 hour of jogging

Moodboard #081121

I woke up really late today. I took off day and planned to clear my inbox and I almost had done.

My heart was really smiling widely when I was reading Kevin's post. After reading his post, I felt glad and felt sad for him at the same time. Having memorable times with his boyfriend and they enjoyed the very minutes of time being together. So lovely and romantic. I have no idea when my time will be. Well, I'm wishing it to be soon though. lol :D

I chatted whole morning with Timothy, we had fun via msn. We talked a lot about his work. It's really great to know him though he is attached. :)

I went to library this afternoon and borrowed some books to improve my vocabulary and words power. :)

Right now, I am crazy over dancing. When I watched "So You Think You Can Dance" season 4, I was amazed and kept smiling. Oh man, I can tell you. You will in love with dancing. Joshua and Katie, they are a perfect couples I have ever seen in all 4 seasons. They are gifted, perfectly flawless and very beautiful dancers. Katie, she was so sexy in every dance. Wow :P

A lot of feelings were blended and filled my heart today. Being cared, being loved, dreaming, dancing, feel beautiful, lonely, crazy, tired, refresh and regret.

~ A phrase from my heart ~
I want to dance beautifully

~ Mood ~
feeling blue, beautiful and going insane soon :P

~ Music for my soul ~


~ Tracing my hours ~
07 hours of sleep
04 hours of chatting
01 hour in library
1/2 hour of jogging
1/2 hour of exercises

Moodboard #081120

@ 06:30, my alarm rang and I woke up straight away. Checking my work email was what I did in this early morning. I was scared when I saw over 2000 unread mails! I took notes of what my plan would be for today. Loud music in the morning really matches well with home abs. :)

I planned to work only half day but ended work till 18:30. A lot of continuous meetings dragged me out from taking half day leave. Sad but I had fun, so much fun. I accomplished quite a lot of things as well. Thanks to the notes that I did in the morning.

I started to understand deeply about my work and I will improve on it. That will be my goals for next year. :P

My lunch was KFC together with my D&D games organizer team, Sharon, Corrine and Patrick. I couldn't understand why Patrick wanted to treat us lunch but I enjoyed it so much though. :) We chatted, talked a lot of lame and stupid things and laughed really out loud. :D Sharon, Corrine and me were like super duper crazy people. Everyone thought that something was wrong with us. Just keep laughing and laughing without reason.

My appraisal was postponed to next week. That's good news for me since I haven't prepared anything from it.

I called my mom this evening. My elder sister kept telling me to attend church again. I am down and backslide since I discovered myself that I'm not straight. They knew that something is happening to me but I didn't give any hint on that. Anyway, I's happy to call them :)

I knew a guy from trevvy yesterday and his name is Timothy. We stay very near to each other. I chatted on msn and hope to see him during my running training. :)

I cut my hair really short and here it is. I'm planning to have new hair style.

It's me. Inside my room, in the dark night! >.<

~ A phrase from my heart ~
If you fail to plan, you're planning to fail.

~ Mood ~
Laugh out loud, having fun as well as tired.

~ Music for my soul ~
I've never been to me by S.H.E


~ Tracing my hours ~
01 & 1/2 hours of blogging
1/2 hour of chatting
07 hour of sleep
1/2 hour of exercise
02 hours of projects followup
04 hours of updating projects documents
02 hours of department performance evaluating
01 and 1/2 hours of internal meeting (Dinner and Dance)
1/2 hour of updating Dinner and Dance games
02 hours of watching Ugly Betty and Project Runway Show

Moodboard #081119

I woke up @ 06:05. Sitting beside my bed and a lot of thoughts started coming in and most are about myself. Sometimes, I thought that my life is so meaningless, then I cried and felt really clueless. How would my future be like?

After those thoughts were gone, I looked at the appraisal form. I didn't have any idea what should I fill in especially my goals for next year! :S

Work was as usual and had fun with my colleagues. There is a lady named Sharon. She is so fun and once we met, we just laughed out loud (real loud). Once we chat, that's it. There is non-stop laugh. It's good to have her around though. :D

I took half day leave and just came back home and rest well. I fell asleep after watching One Piece episode 377 and Bleach episode 195. They are my favourite anime series though. :P

I wanted to learn how to play guitar but didn't give much time on practicing. Today, I was searching for a guitar chord and practice but it sucked. I need someone's help to teach me! Talent time contest is in next 2 weeks. I should practice well. Haven't decided to participate in the contest yet the committee had put my name in the list beforehand! My lovely friends! :)

I ran about 1/2 an hour today. I felt really great after training. Cool huh? >.<

~ A phrase from my heart ~
One hug a day keeps our sorrow away


~ Mood ~
Having fun and clueless about myself again

~ Music for my soul ~


~ Tracing my hours ~
01 and 1/2 hours of internal meeting
02 hours of projects follow up and updates
01 hour of chatting with account management team
02 hours of nap
07 hours of sleep
1/2 hour of running
1/2 hour of exercising
01 hour of blogging
1/2 hour of guitar practice

Moodboard #081118

I really feel tired now. Don't really want to blog today but have to push myself to do so.

Tons of loads from my shoulder were released after I finished presenting our Dinner and Dance Games day proposal to my big boss. He did like the proposal but he seemed like he was more concerning on half day off ( ~ $7,000 that's the amount that my company loses if everyone stops working for like 4 hours!) Anyway, he was convinced and agreed to run as we planned and schedule. Cheers to our team! :D

fyi, this is our company wide activity, Dinner and Dance, which will be held on 4th of December. We'll have a countdown on that night to 5th of December which will be 20th Birthday of Lawton & Yeo Design Associates Pte Ltd.

The games day event will be beforehand, on 1st of December and it will start at 14:00 to 18:00. There will be two session of games. One session is based on department challenges and another is based on teamworks, interactions and creativities.

I's so pissed off when I started joining the committee of Dinner and Dance event. Didn't really know anyone and everyone is not friendly at all! Now, everything turns around. I become a big part of the committee and the organiser for the games day event. It's really getting tougher for me. All I do is just believing in myself and keep walking ahead. :)

Everyone wants me to perticipate in talent time contest but sadly, I do not have any showable talent currently. Sigh! At least, talent needs time to practice. :P

A bunch of things are waiting for me to update. I couldn't find a clue to start working on them. Tomorrow will be my half day off. I suppose to attend Asia Conference @ expo hall 8 but I do not wish to go. Boredom :S

~ A phrase from my heart ~
You are not as bad as you think you are



~ Mood ~
tired and clueless about myself

~ Music for my soul ~


~ Tracing my hours ~
07 hours of sleep
02 hours of projects followup
01 hour of Dinner and Dance games day schedule and planning
01 hour of internal meeting with CEO
04 hours of projects updates
01 hour of blogging
1/2 hour of exercises
1/4 hour of lunch
1/4 hour of dinner

Moodboard #081117

It was 06:00 when I woke up and my alarm had not rung yet! Couldn't sleep well at night. Though i didn't have a nightmare, it's not a good dream also. It's about my personal life. :S

I reached my workplace @ 08:50 and I wasn't ready to work. It's Monday after all. My HOD wasn't at the office as well since his flight back from Penang to Singapore was delayed. Opened up my Microsoft Outlook, and there were over 1,000 mails haven't read! I should give a day to clear up my mail inbox.

Travels arrangements, resource allocations and projects updates await me as always. Email Correspondences with Prototype makers, Project leaders, HODs (Head of Department), senior and junior designers took almost my entire day away. Sometimes, I just want to run away from my work but the problems won't be solved in such way! All I have to do is dealing with smile and happy face like I always do. :P

The weather drove me really lazy. It was a heavy, dark and cold rain. It's a good time to sleep though. Actually, I dozed off sometimes!:)

Tomorrow, there will be a checkpoint on Dinner & Dance games with my big boss (CEO). I was scared when I sent him invitation and still I am. Yeah. It's my first time having checkpoint with him. I shouldn't be stressed over this little staff.

I had a good chat with Head of Finance Department, Baskar (Indian guy) and got to know him personally. Mingling with HODs builds my self confidence and communication skills with tough people. I'm getting love my job. :D

~ A phrase from my heart ~
Stay happy and keep smiling when facing challenges.

~ Mood ~
my heart is smiling wide :D

~ Music for my soul ~


~ Tracing my hours ~
06 & 1/2 hours of sleep
01 hour of liasing with prototype vendors
04 hours of departmental performance updates
1/2 hour of project updates
02 hours of projects correspondences
1/2 hour of Dinner & Dance updates to committee members
3/4 hour of searching of song
01 hour of blogging
1/2 hour of exercises

Moodboard #081116

Today, i woke up quite early (as for weekends) at 06:30 as I need to meet my cousins @ 08:30. Before I left from my apartment, I cleaned and vacuumed my room and listened some sweet romantic songs @imeem at the same time.

I left house @07:50 and reached my cousins' house @ 09:00. We played badminton but it was so windy and as a result, we ended the game earlier. Nevertheless, we ran around the football field.(In fact, I couldn't run so far today. The sun was really hot @10:30 :| )

We shopped for food at SS (don't really know how to spell the shop name :|). Everyone thought that we are vegetarians since we bought 3 fruits (bananas, papaya, longan) + 2 vegetables + mushrooms and no meats at all.

We played board games for the rest of the day. (started at 11:45 and ended at 18:30). I was amazed how the time was passed. We only played scrabble game (just 4 rounds in fact).
Those 4 rounds were only played by 2, my cousin (elder sister) and me.

The scores and timings are as follows:
1st Round (from 11:45 - 14:15) my score - 257
2nd Round (from 14:30 - 16:20) my score - 270
3rd Round (from 16:20 - 18:00) my score - 267
4th Round (from 18:05 - 18:45) my score - 284

I had a happy time though it's just a normal day. We shopped, we cooked, we laughed, we ate, we played and we made fun of each other. :P

~ Tracing my hours ~
6 hours of sleep
1/3 hour of run
1/2 hour of badminton
1/2 hour of cleaning and vacuuming my room
7 hours of board game (scrabble) :D

~ A phrase from my heart ~
Release every burden by laughing out loud.

~ Mood ~
had fun, being lame and tired at the end of the day =D

~ Music for my soul ~

Moodboard #081115

Thinking a lot about my past and the situation i'm into now. I struggled so much during these days and learnt new things at the same times. I think i pushed myself really hard yet managed not to breakdown.

After listening "Amazing Grace" by Tomlin, the love of God overwhelmed me once again. It always reminds me of the Grace of God and the greatest love which cannot be compared and always perfectly completes for all. I should give sometimes to attend church so that i still can be connected. ^.~

The rest of the day? Just turned on TV and watched cartoons to cool down and relax myself. :P
There was one reality show, one of the best and one of my favourites, "So you think you can dance". fyi, the show is on every Saturday, from 18:00 to 19:00 @ Channel 5. I just love to see the dances flowed with emotions and sensations. The choreographies are amazing and full of tricks and tactics.
I will end my day with blogging and listen my romantic lovely songs collection from imeem.

~ Achievements ~

Ran about 20 minutes (very sweaty in fact).

~ A phrase from my heart ~
To live a life full of love and happiness.

~ Mood ~
feeling blue and bearing a beautiful heart <3

Moodboard Template

This is my first moodboard creation..
The draft outlines of moodboard will be like this:

1. Daily Highlights
2. Picture/s that reflect my mood or me of the day
3. Mood and emotional feelings
4. Achievements
5. Milestones

Really believe that I will commit myself on this.
All the best.